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I hate weighing myself.

Bloody weight fluctuations and birthday eating!

venus-ramona:

thiscosmicobscurity:

His pledge to her:
i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle. i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger, and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling, sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random texts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you.  i will love you. i will love you.
I’m pretty sure I’ve reblogged this before, but it’s so perfect.

This sounds like promises you’ve made to me already.
Oh god….

venus-ramona:

thiscosmicobscurity:

His pledge to her:

i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle. i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger, and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling, sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random texts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you.  i will love you. i will love you.

I’m pretty sure I’ve reblogged this before, but it’s so perfect.

This sounds like promises you’ve made to me already.

Oh god….

2 years on.

Today marks two years since I tried to take my own life.

Two full years.  That’s time I would have never had if I succeeded.  I’ve been doing a lot of thinking in the lead up to this day and I’ve decided that I am proud of how far I’ve come.  Last year, when I sunk into the depths of Anorexia I thought that I was right back at square one. 

I was wrong.

Almost 20kgs on and a lot of support later, I am happy and healthy and finally making use of the skills I’ve learnt over the past two years and working to accept the experiences I’ve had in the past.

I have an amazing best friend and boyfriend - people that I adore and couldn’t imagine my life without.  I have jobs that I love (most of the time) and I’m tomorrow I start my first practical rotation as a student nurse. 

I still have to fight every day to keep myself at this point, but I’ve come too damn far now to give up. 

I will keep fighting, for myself, for those around me, and for those who need someone to fight for them.

This is my life, and I’m going to live it :)