I think you look really lovely! Not underweight at all. I was your size when I got married.
- My mother…
(I’m about to be admitted to hospital because I’m so sick…)
Day 1: Think of the last time you were really angry. Why was that?
The lightbulb blew in the bathroom and so I couldn’t see the number on the scales before I went to bed. I couldn’t sleep because I didn’t know how much it was… I’d had chocolate too so I really needed to know. I couldn’t move the scales out of the bathroom because I always weigh myself naked and in exactly the same spot to make sure it’s reasonably accurate.
I know it sounds ridiculous, but I was so angry with myself for not changing the bulb in daylight but I couldn’t admit to my housemates that I needed to change it right then and there. I have trouble with anger… I don’t really know how to express it… so I can only really acknowledge it when it’s directed towards myself. BPD/OCD/ED is so much fun -_-‘
I am writing with regards to the downright disgusting state of the kitchen.
On Saturday, I cleaned said kitchen till it was spotless and it pleased me enormously for the 10 minutes until you and your boyfriend came home. I appreciate that you both are trying to eat healthily and I’m thrilled that he has you eating vegetables… but cooking does not end when you eat the meal.
I am sick and tired of washing every single cup, plate, wok, pan, pot, chopping board and item of cutlery you manage to use while home. Do you know how many pairs of rubber gloves I’ve gone through?! It particularly frustrates me when you promise that you will clean them and then fail to do so for at least the next 3 days… by which point I have usually done them to save what little sanity I have left.
Please consider this your final warning. If you do not start to clean up after yourself as a grown man should, you may find these dirty dishes moved from the kitchen benches to your desk so that I don’t have to look at them.
Yours, with little hope that things will change,
P.S If you can’t wash the dishes, please at least RINSE them and remove the huge piles of food left on the plate… bugs might enjoy it, but I don’t.